I opened my Field Notes journal book and wrote for the first time in a while. It felt good! It felt real.
Already, one insight: I grew up loving computers and now I don't. BUT! I don't use computers the way I did before. I am so far away from how I used them in the 80s that I don't recognize myself any more. Constant reading, feeds, compulsions. It's awful for the soul. It seems like a good thing to read everything? But then there's that highly compressed sliver of "you" left at the bottom of it all, crushed flat. Flat and uninteresting.
So take the load off, get off the internet and reading. Allow you, maybe you're a sponge?, to re-inflate your self and then get back to paying attention. Pay attention to what you love and then, without thinking, go do it.